Spits at mirrors, it's not an issue...

Wasn't lemonade a childrens drink?
and now I'm drunk
hoping to be noticed by ones that don't notice
wishing I was with those that did
miles away and still miles from my heart
knowing my tenderness it won't be long
you will capture me in you pretty cage until you long to set me free
but it won't be for me
you will wish it would be
but it's for you again/

I never have time to blog anymore now with my child. He is my world and life is so much better now that he is here. The worries about my body have become not so important and I do not starve myself anymore. I also don't exercise either which isn't a good thing. I am pretty chubby now but much happier than before. Charlie and my spirituality are taking center stage in my life now and I'm so glad.

sometimes I forget that you are the sun in my sky
sometimes I forget you were once my one true comfort
that you are the moon and the sprinkle of stars I wish upon
I let impatience get the best of me
my head blocks the hope that radiates from my heart
and though no one understands I have loved you through everything you have done
you will always be forgiven
like a child rebelling against their parents
denying the existence of  the universe
I'll be there for you through it
you are my committment
even if I am not yours

each line had your words
my words for you and if you heard it you would know
you were the reason for them ad you brought me this far
and the world is about money for you so I guess you should be happy
that you gave me the gift of a pay check and a few wonderful gifts
that isn't how I remember you though
I remember the part of you that is gentle looks and not enough words.

New new new. Fresh.